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Monthly Archives: July 2017
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Haven’t written for a week. With jet lag and my 2 essays it’s been a funny old time. Coming home was nice to see the dogs and be on familiar ground, but there have been times when the feeling of … Continue reading
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Robbed
On the plane on the way home. Can’t wait to see my little doggies. Gonna snuggle up to them so tight when I get home. Looking forward to a good cup of tea too. I have had an amazing time … Continue reading
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Unstoppable
In one of the most beautiful places I have ever been. Beautiful yellow sand, amazing blue sea with the biggest waves. Palm trees galore. Brilliant sunshine. Chilled out atmosphere. And yet the pain and panic I feel, feel unstoppable. It’s … Continue reading
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Patient.
I felt strange that conference had ended. Kind of got used to it. Went for breakfast with friends and met my Pastors there which was good, checked out of hotel and into where I’m staying till tomorrow and then went … Continue reading
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Riding.
Last day of conference today. While it has been extremely hard at times I am SO glad I came. Being with people has helped me immensely. I have truly been riding on people’s prayers and God’s grace. There’s NO WAY … Continue reading
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Undeniables
Here in LA at my churches 50th year anniversary conference. Had lots of time to think about things. And I have been thinking about how even though yes I have questioned God fiercely and deeply regarding why John died and … Continue reading
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Awkward
Grateful to have made it to America, and for the hospitality shown to me. Currently Jet Lagging.. it 3am and I am wide awake after only have 4 hours sleep, after not sleeping for 24 hours while travelling. Woke up … Continue reading
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Freaking out
Got admin to do with John’s business today, not looking forward to that… feeling very wobbly. Also off to California for 2 weeks with church tomorrow. Absolutely freaking out. Not sure I can do it. It feels so hard which … Continue reading
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Little things… not so little
The thing about realising someone has died is that it is a process, it’s not like they die and you have the shock and then when that wears off you realise it, it takes time. A photo of John and … Continue reading
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Canines
Woke up this morning, was ok, sorting my clothes out, cleaning my teeth, my little Yorkies were lying in the bed watching me so I lay down and cuddled them, brain switched to “Wonder what John would be doing now?” … Continue reading
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A Little Bit of Life 