Monthly Archives: August 2017

Pendulum 

Posted on August 30, 2017 by vickmcq

Bereavement counselling was rough yesterday. I think cause the week had been filled with loads of emotions, happy and sad that going through it all with my counsellor felt like I was swinging through a weeks emotions in an hour. … Continue reading →

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Without You

Posted on August 21, 2017 by vickmcq

I’ve said before that grief waits for you. It not only waits but it attacks when it has the opportunity. Had a rough week, spent a lot of time alone, watching tv, totally rinsing the detective box sets on Netflix, … Continue reading →

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Circus Monkey

Posted on August 13, 2017 by vickmcq

Been knocked about by grief this week. It’s been beating me like a circus monkey. I look dreadful. Bags and dark circles under my eyes after terrible nightmares when I’ve eventually got to sleep. Feel wretched inside. Should be John’s … Continue reading →

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Crushing

Posted on August 8, 2017 by vickmcq

The grief at the moment is crushing. I’m trying to do stuff and get on and it just keeps knocking me down. It’s the unbearable, breath taking away kind. Trying to sort out John’s business even the first few bits … Continue reading →

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Complicated attending.

Posted on August 6, 2017 by vickmcq

6 months today John went home to be with the Lord. And no it’s not easier, possibly harder, maybe just different. Sunday means church. I want to enjoy church but I don’t, I really don’t, it’s like when I walk … Continue reading →

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