Category Archives: loss

3 boxes.

Posted on May 25, 2022 by vickmcq

Imagine 3 separate boxes. These are the boxes where I contain my grief. Let me explain. The first box is where I hold memories and thoughts of John that are too painful or traumatic to think about and talk about … Continue reading →

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Pain, confidence, fragility and faith

Posted on March 30, 2022 by vickmcq

So after having a searing pain in the top back of my thigh I ended up at an emergency Doctors at 2am on Saturday morning. Turns out its a trapped nerve, thankfully not a blood clot like they suspected. I … Continue reading →

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Anniversaries

Posted on February 10, 2022 by vickmcq

Haven’t written for a while! Just haven’t had the words or the energy. The world has been exhausting with the pandemic and the nonsense politics Johnson and the Conservatives are subjecting us too. 😡 Don’t get me started cause I … Continue reading →

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A reflection on 25 Years (Long read)

Posted on June 23, 2021 by vickmcq

25 years ago today I raised my hand at a youth weekend away with Kenilworth Youth for Christ. What a journey its been. 2 months after this my second nephew Alex was born severely brain damaged due to a Doctor’s … Continue reading →

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One Word Prayer.

Posted on April 14, 2021 by vickmcq

*Content Warning: Strong Language One of the most heart felt prayers I ever prayed and one that I believe was instrumental in the change of circumstances that happened around it was just one word, a word that many would say … Continue reading →

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Hopes and dreams

Posted on December 13, 2020 by vickmcq

I’ve recently found myself wanting to have hopes, dreams, desires and being invested in things. Continue reading →

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A ramble of different things.

Posted on October 16, 2020 by vickmcq

My Dad has been very poorly and was in hospital for 5 weeks. He is out now…apart from the hospital losing him for 2 hours over the weekend when they took him back in briefly. If I’m honest I don’t … Continue reading →

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“You’re not academic”

Posted on June 1, 2020 by vickmcq

Another essay in. I still have 2 to do this year that I had deferred from previous years due to bereavements. It’s honestly a miracle I’ve got this far and I’m so grateful to God everytime I hand an essay … Continue reading →

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Kindness

Posted on March 9, 2020 by vickmcq

It wasn’t someone shouting at me that my beliefs were wrong that drew me to The Lord. It wasn’t someone screaming at me that I was ‘going to hell’ that drew me to The Lord. It wasn’t someone quoting Bible … Continue reading →

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Chinks of light.

Posted on February 9, 2020 by vickmcq

Phew. The third-year anniversary of John’s death is over. It was so hard this year. Every day since John died I have got out of bed straight away when I’ve been awake but twice in the last month I haven’t … Continue reading →

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