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Category Archives: loss
Under pressure
Tomorrow is the inquest into my sister’s death. It’s been 6 months since she passed away, and really it’s still hitting me. The last week has been horrible. The pressure I feel at the moment in particular is unlike any … Continue reading
My broken certitude.
One of the many things that happened when John died was my certitude about things was smashed to pieces which if you have read through my blog I talk about a fair bit. The most worn out phrase I use … Continue reading
Posted in Bereavement, Deconstruction, Faith, grief, Life, loss, Perseverance, Theology
Tagged alone, Bereavement, Bible, church, Faith, feelings, God, grief, Jesus, life, loneliness, lonely, Lord, loss, pain, Widow, widowed
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Scared.
Lyrics from a song can be so powerful and this one spoke so much to me: “I walk through desert plains here in the open range. Feel like a renegade looking to runaway. Here in the wilderness I’m coming face … Continue reading
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Tidal Wave.
Yesterday was a day for reminiscing, I went back to the Cathedral I used to work in, and then I went to see my first Vicar and his wife who I adore and It was so good to catch up … Continue reading
Posted in Bereavement, grief, Life, loss
Tagged alone, Bereavement, Emotion, Faith, feelings, grief, life, loneliness, lonely, loss, pain, sister, Widow, widowed
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Kindness
It feels like forever since I wrote my last post but in reality it’s only been a week. It has been marked by kindness of the Lord. I have seen His kindness so evident and tangible. One of the things … Continue reading
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Tagged Bereavement, church, Faith, God, grief, Jesus, life, Lord, loss, pain, widowed
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Lyrics
Weekend away was sooo good. Loved it, it was like bright warm sunshine breaking through the clouds of a foggy dark miserable day. Saw old friends which was really really lovely. Learnt about the beautiful Gospel and was taught how … Continue reading
Posted in Bereavement, Faith, grief, Life, loss, Perseverance, Theology
Tagged alone, Bereavement, Faith, feelings, God, grief, Jesus, life, loneliness, lonely, Lord, loss, pain, Perservering, Widow, widowed
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Small wins.
After a weekend of an avalanche of grief, when in the valley of the shadow you have to take the “small” wins. My wins today are I am up, showered, dogs have been walked and fed and I’ve made and … Continue reading
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Tagged alone, Bereavement, church, Faith, feelings, grief, Hurt, life, loneliness, lonely, loss, pain, Widow, widowed
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Trying to keep going
Didn’t go work on Saturday. Just couldn’t. I had seen something in a shop the day before that had reminded me of John (still can’t bare to think of it to write what it was here…) and it knocked me … Continue reading
Posted in Bereavement, counselling, Faith, grief, Life, loss
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Decisions, decisions… (or the importance of theology for me)
Since John passed away I haven’t really made many decisions. Partly this is a conscious decision (hmmm?) because my mind has been everywhere and I don’t want to make a rash or wrong decision. One decision I made fairly soon, … Continue reading
Posted in Bereavement, Bible, Deconstruction, Faith, grief, Humility, Life, loss, Theology
Tagged Bereavement, Bible, Deconstruction, Faith, God, grief, Holy Spirit, life, loss, pain, Theology, Word Of God
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The (kind of, ish) lighter side of grief
My mum told me that when I was really stressed I would sleep talk and sing adverts in my sleep, particularly around the time of my exams and John told me I slept talk when I really stressed and he … Continue reading
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A Little Bit of Life 