Tag Archives: grief

Small wins.

Posted on October 22, 2018 by vickmcq

After a weekend of an avalanche of grief, when in the valley of the shadow you have to take the “small” wins. My wins today are I am up, showered, dogs have been walked and fed and I’ve made and … Continue reading →

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Trying to keep going

Posted on October 9, 2018 by vickmcq

Didn’t go work on Saturday. Just couldn’t. I had seen something in a shop the day before that had reminded me of John (still can’t bare to think of it to write what it was here…) and it knocked me … Continue reading →

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Decisions, decisions… (or the importance of theology for me)

Posted on September 8, 2018 by vickmcq

Since John passed away I haven’t really made many decisions. Partly this is a conscious decision (hmmm?) because my mind has been everywhere and I don’t want to make a rash or wrong decision. One decision I made fairly soon, … Continue reading →

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The (kind of, ish) lighter side of grief

Posted on August 30, 2018 by vickmcq

My mum told me that when I was really stressed I would sleep talk and sing adverts in my sleep, particularly around the time of my exams and John told me I slept talk when I really stressed and he … Continue reading →

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Silence

Posted on August 22, 2018 by vickmcq

I’ve been trying to find my blog post where I talk about my uni residential in January but I can’t find it… maybe I dreamt that I wrote which is a high possibility. At my January residential 2 lecturers independently … Continue reading →

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Pulled in every direction.

Posted on August 20, 2018 by vickmcq

Seen my bereavement therapist. She said I was emotionally exhausted and to take sometime off work to recover. Which I have done. Of course this grief is very different to John’s grief for all the obvious reasons that they were … Continue reading →

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Unreal

Posted on August 16, 2018 by vickmcq

On way back home now from being with my family and having my sister funeral yesterday, have pulled over into the services as I was crying so much I couldn’t drive. This blog post may be a complete mess however … Continue reading →

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Limbo round 2

Posted on August 11, 2018 by vickmcq

The time in between a bereavement and the funeral is what I call limbo time. You haven’t processed it all, your still in shock and the awfully sobering visual imagery and experience of the finality of the funeral hasn’t happened … Continue reading →

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Grief upon grief.

Posted on August 3, 2018 by vickmcq

I was gonna wait to write this blog post… so it might come out as a load of drivel. More than likely. One of my Sisters past away very suddenly last week. The pain is so awful. When I say … Continue reading →

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Embracing the fear. (Relatively long post)

Posted on May 8, 2018 by vickmcq

I’m going to begin this post with a quote from a 90’s girl band. “Water’s running in the wrong direction Got a feeling it’s a mixed up sign, I can see it in my own reflection Something funny’s going on … Continue reading →

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