Tag Archives: loss

3 boxes.

Posted on May 25, 2022 by vickmcq

Imagine 3 separate boxes. These are the boxes where I contain my grief. Let me explain. The first box is where I hold memories and thoughts of John that are too painful or traumatic to think about and talk about … Continue reading →

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Anniversaries

Posted on February 10, 2022 by vickmcq

Haven’t written for a while! Just haven’t had the words or the energy. The world has been exhausting with the pandemic and the nonsense politics Johnson and the Conservatives are subjecting us too. 😡 Don’t get me started cause I … Continue reading →

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Time will tell.

Posted on July 26, 2021 by vickmcq

During my ten days of isolation after Dad had died and I’d watched every single thing ever on all the streaming platforms and catch up I watched this film about an Australian film maker who suffered with depression. When it … Continue reading →

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Hopes and dreams

Posted on December 13, 2020 by vickmcq

I’ve recently found myself wanting to have hopes, dreams, desires and being invested in things. Continue reading →

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The Struggles Real.

Posted on November 11, 2020 by vickmcq

The other day I did something really scary. It’s something most Christians would never admit to doing. They wouldn’t admit it to themselves that they actually found this true let alone anyone else. After everything I have been through with … Continue reading →

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A ramble of different things.

Posted on October 16, 2020 by vickmcq

My Dad has been very poorly and was in hospital for 5 weeks. He is out now…apart from the hospital losing him for 2 hours over the weekend when they took him back in briefly. If I’m honest I don’t … Continue reading →

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I don’t know…do I?

Posted on August 21, 2020 by vickmcq

This week has been one of those where I’m left wondering about so many different things. Have I got everything wrong? Do I know anything at all? What if I am wrong about certain things? What would that all mean? … Continue reading →

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Learning to breathe again.

Posted on July 26, 2020 by vickmcq

I’ve written a couple of times about how my faith has changed since John my husband died and then my sisters suicide a year and half later but I’ve been reflecting on it recently. I find myself thinking about how … Continue reading →

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“You’re not academic”

Posted on June 1, 2020 by vickmcq

Another essay in. I still have 2 to do this year that I had deferred from previous years due to bereavements. It’s honestly a miracle I’ve got this far and I’m so grateful to God everytime I hand an essay … Continue reading →

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Verbal Processing.

Posted on May 27, 2020 by vickmcq

To be fair I have done quite a lot of verb processing today, and yet, I feel I need to do more. (This may be the lockdown effect.) Some people say you shouldn’t process on a  blog for others to … Continue reading →

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