Tag Archives: pain

3 boxes.

Posted on May 25, 2022 by vickmcq

Imagine 3 separate boxes. These are the boxes where I contain my grief. Let me explain. The first box is where I hold memories and thoughts of John that are too painful or traumatic to think about and talk about … Continue reading →

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Pain, confidence, fragility and faith

Posted on March 30, 2022 by vickmcq

So after having a searing pain in the top back of my thigh I ended up at an emergency Doctors at 2am on Saturday morning. Turns out its a trapped nerve, thankfully not a blood clot like they suspected. I … Continue reading →

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Time will tell.

Posted on July 26, 2021 by vickmcq

During my ten days of isolation after Dad had died and I’d watched every single thing ever on all the streaming platforms and catch up I watched this film about an Australian film maker who suffered with depression. When it … Continue reading →

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Christmas time.

Posted on January 5, 2020 by vickmcq

The last day of the Christmas has arrived in the church calendar. Midnight Mass was beautiful, I cried even though I was serving but did it discreetly so no one saw, I was overwhelmed by the story of Jesus’ birth, … Continue reading →

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Brutally Honest.

Posted on December 15, 2019 by vickmcq

Stand by your beds because it’s all about to come tumbling out. It’s been a hard week. I’ve faced a fair amount of pushback on social media for my political and theological beliefs, I also had therapy for the first … Continue reading →

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Ruined but onward.

Posted on October 16, 2019 by vickmcq

Yesterday, as I was in Warwickshire visiting my sister, I made a trip to Coventry Cathedral. I absolutely love that place, I always have done since I was a kid. One of the highlights of my life was working (and … Continue reading →

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And….relax… (or at least try)

Posted on September 22, 2019 by vickmcq

My third week since moving. People keep asking me if I have settled in, which seems like a strange question to be asked so early. Can you settle into somewhere straight away after living somewhere else for 10 years? Not … Continue reading →

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Stealing a moment for reflection

Posted on September 3, 2019 by vickmcq

This is genuinely the first moment I have had to reflect and write in the last week (When I haven’t been too tired). What a week. It’s felt like a whole year has past by. Packing up the house required … Continue reading →

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This and that…

Posted on July 20, 2019 by vickmcq

Gone back and forth whether it is wise to write my blog at this current moment… juries still out and I’m not waiting for them to come back in so… I recognise it is a highly turbulent week ahead with … Continue reading →

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Profound Loneliness

Posted on June 22, 2019 by vickmcq

Yesterday I spoke to someone about the loneliness I have felt, and I realised I can handle about 90 percent of it pretty well, it’s the 10 percent that is profound loneliness that I cannot. Nothing touches it. Nothing. No … Continue reading →

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